lonely.

He said, "The different people are not like other people,
but being different is nothing to be ashamed of.
Because other people are not such wonderful people.
They're 100 times 1,000. But you, You're one times one!
They walk all over the earth. You just stay here.
They're common as weeds, but you. YOU'RE BLUE ROSES."
I said, "blue is so wrong for roses"
and he said "it's right for you"


I don't want to be alone anymore.

I want a boy. I want a boy who will text me sweet things. I want a boy who will surprise me constantly. I want a boy who will tell me I look beautiful with nothing but a tee-shirt and my hair up. I want a boy who will kiss me on the forehead instead of trying to put his tongue down my thoart all the time. I want a boy that I can smoke and drink with. I want a boy that I can go to parties with. I want a boy who will jump off roofs into pools. I want a boy who will throw rocks at my window. I want a who will burp and wrestle with. I want a boy who will play me gutiar for me. I want a boy I can take showers with and run around in our just socks. I want a boy who will send me lyrics and make them feel like he wrote them for me, but he didn't. I want a boy I can listen to brand new with. I want a boy that I can actually watch a movie with. I want a boy I can fool around with and giggle and laugh the whole time. I want a boy that will tell me I'm beautiful everyday. I want a boy who wont get jelaous if I talk to other guys. I want a boy who will say up till 4 in the morning talking to me. I want a boy who will sneek into my house and stay the night with me. I want a boy that doesnt say to much, but when he does its amazing. I want a boy who will hold my hand in the halls. I want a boy who will give me butterflies when he looks at me. I want a boy with amazing eyes. I want a boy that knows what hes doing ;]. I want a boy that I actually enjoy kissing. I want a boy that I can make-out with for hours. I want a boy that I can sneek out with and dance in the moonlight high. I want a boy that will be loyal to me. I want a boy who doesn't lie and if he does it's because he doesn't want to tell me I look fat in a shirt. I want a boy who will respect my wishes to do certain things. I want a boy who loves music and sleeping. I want a boy who I happy with just simple things. I want a boy that will make everday seem like it's our last. I want a boy that I can tell everything too. I want a boy who will make fun of me (if it's nice). I want a boy that will skip school with me. I want a boy that will sneek into a hotel and go swimming with me. I want a boy that alot of people like. I want a boy who is wanted at parties. I want a boy who doesn't talk to much but not a mute. I want a boy who looks so cute in cons. I want a boy that doesnt get mad when people make fun of him, he just sits there and smiles. I want a boy that a cute odd name. I want a boy that is insiteful and makes me think. I want a boy that notices the little things. I want a boy will argue with me about policial shit. I want a boy that has a nice body but not that great. I just want a boy who I can have fun with and not get too serious with because it's only highschool.

I just want a boy. this boy.